‘May time na pipitik ka’: In 2013, Sarah G revealed going through personal crisis

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Posted at May 01 2018 10:33 PM | Updated as of May 01 2018 11:19 PM

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Sarah Geronimo's breakdown during her concert on Monday (Manila time), at least to her long-time fans, carried a familiar issue that the superstar had tackled, or hinted at, in her interviews in recent years.

In a portion of the Las Vegas stop of her "THIS 15 ME" tour, the 29-year-old performer revealed feeling "empty" despite her success, as well as the recurring yearning to find fulfillment that she couldn't get out of her career.

She tearfully told her audience: "Hindi 'yung successful na shows o 'yung mga hits ang makakapag-kumpleto sa 'yo, ang makakapagpasaya sa 'yo bilang isang tao, kundi 'yung tunay na pagmamahal na hindi nagbabago, perpekto ka man o hindi.

"Unti-unti po, hinahanap ko kung ano ba talaga 'yung gagawin ko para I will feel fulfilled. Until now, pumapasok pa rin siya sa isip ko."

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Loyal fans of Geronimo will remember that in 2013, in a tell-all interview with TV host Boy Abunda, she spoke along the same lines when it came to sustaining her personal well-being.

"Pinagdadaanan ko po siya, na may hinahanap ako na makakatulong naman sa pagkatao ko, hindi as a performer, hindi as a singer, pero 'yung totality ko bilang tao, at 25," was her answer to Abunda's question as to whether she felt happy.

In the opening part of that interview, Geronimo admitted dealing with quarter-life crisis: "Maraming tanong parang, saan ba patungo ang buhay ko, karera ko? Ano pa ba ang kailangan ko sa buhay ko? Paano na ako pag mas tumanda pa ako?"

She spoke in clearer terms on the same topic in a separate interview that same year, as she referred to her career. "Ano ba talaga'ng gusto ko? Pagpapatuloy ka ba 'to, o may isa pang pangarap na sa tingin ko doon ba ako magiging mas masaya?"

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Considered the foremost pop performer in the country, Geronimo rose to stardom in 2003 when she won the talent search "Star for a Night," and has since become a multi-hyphenate with sold-out concerts and albums, dozens of brand endorsements, TV shows and box-office hits.

Geronimo, in her Las Vegas concert, also mentioned realizing she was not prepared for what came with being in the limelight, especially "the pressure to always do good, maging role model ka, maging perpekto ka."

"Pagod po ako," she added, crying. "I hope na kayanin ko po, i-survive ko 'tong gabing ito, because you paid. I'm sorry."

What followed was Geronimo's performance of "Forever's Not Enough," fraught with struggle to keep composed after her emotional outburst. She ultimately didn't finish the song, and had to temporarily leave the stage to recover, before resuming the show until its end.

 

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Going by Geronimo's 2013 interview with Abunda, the Las Vegas incident wasn't the first time she had to regain calm to carry on with the demands of her career.

Another of Abunda's question at the time, was: "May mga panahon ba na sobrang dami na iyong ginagawa, na nararamdaman mong 'I do everything for everyone, not just for family but for friends, I have to live up to the expectations of the public, I have to be this because I am a public figure . . .' Was there a time na, 'Pagod na pagod na pagod na ako, puwede bang ayoko na muna?'"

Geronimo answered: "Meron po. A couple of times. Pag nag-be-break down -- I'm sorry, ha. May time na pipitik ka, e. Wala, talagang iiiyak mo na lang lahat, isisigaw mo na lang lahat, dahil pagod ka na. Ang dami mong iniisip, may problema ka pa, masakit pa 'yung puso mo, mayroon pang nanakit sa 'yo."

The subject of independence also came up repeatedly in her series of interviews in 2013, as she promoted the debut season of "The Voice of the Philippines," wherein she was a coach, and the release of her film "It Takes a Man and a Woman."

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When asked by Abunda as to the extent her parents, Divine and Delfin, can suggest or dictate her repertoire and public image, Geronimo answered: "Siguro parte po ng pagiging 25 years old ko na para kang nahahati. Part of me, gustung-gusto ko na talagang maging independent, gustong-gusto ko na mag-decide on my own, gusto ko, ako lagi."

"Pero," she continued, "napakahalaga ng say ng mga magulang ko, at most of the time talaga, tama talaga sila."

In a viral clip taken shortly after the end of her Las Vegas concert, Geronimo was seen accompanied by the woman she considers her pillar, her mother Divine. A crying Geronimo could be seen repeatedly apologizing for her on-stage breakdown, but was instead given encouraging words by the concert staff, her management and her fans.

In light of Geronimo's Las Vegas episode, spectators and a number of fans have been quick to point fingers at the uncompromising and "draining" schedule the singer has been subjected to, even going as far as accusing the people close to her of pushing Geronimo beyond her limits.

As early as or even prior to 2013, Geronimo was aware that her mother had been at the center of such accusations, a topic Geronimo addressed head-on in her interview with Abunda.

"Noong umpisa, siyempre napakasakit, kasi alam mo naman kung ano ang totoo. May phase pa na nahahati sa sinasabi ng ibang tao sa sarili mong pamilya, pero dumating ako sa pagkakataon, na buong-buo ako, 'yung paniniwala ko sa pagmamahal ng pamilya ko sa akin, ng mga magulang ko, na the best lang ang gusto nila para sa akin," she said at the time.