He may be one of the country's biggest stars but that didn't stop Vice Ganda from feeling washed up as he crosses 40.

"There was a time na I thought people gave up on me," the comedian acknowledged as he celebrated his 41st birthday on "It's Showtime" on Saturday. "May pagkakataon na akala ko kinasawaan na ako ng mga tao, na ayaw na ako ng tao, hindi na nila ako panonoorin, may iba na silang gusto."

He continued: "Nalungkot talaga ako noon. Sabi ko, 'Tapos na ata iyong karera nung kabayo. Nagtagumpay pala ang mga nagwi-wish na matapos na ang karera ng kabayo.'

"Pero hindi mas marami pa lang nagdadasal para sa akin. At iyong mga panahon na ako mismo pinagdudahan ko iyong sarili ko na, 'Ay, wala na atang may gusto sa akin.' Iyon pala, napalingon lang kayo sa iba pero ako pa rin ang binalikan ng mga mata ninyo kaya maraming salamat po."

Vice Ganda went on to say that, at 40, he would want it if he would have died so as not to burden his mother further.

But bouyed by the fervent fan support he has been receiving recently, he said he wants to continue to serve as everyone's happy pill.

"Lalo na ngayon sa Pilipinas, ang daming dahilan para maging malungkot, gusto ko isa ako sa mga maraming dahilan para pangitiin kayo araw-araw. Gusto kong maging sunshine ng buhay ninyo," he said.