MANILA – A former club entertainer in Japan and rebellious daughter has now dedicated her life to spreading the word of God and helping fellow mothers who are facing hardships in life.
Jinky Lozano, the eldest of five children, grew up in Davao. She excelled in school and dreamt of becoming an actress someday.
“Gusto kong maging artista. Mahilig akong sumayaw, mahilig akong kumanta. Natatandaan ko ‘yung first time na nagkaroon kami ng TV, kasi nag-iigib pa ‘ko ng tubig. Nung nabalitaan kong nagkaroon kami ng TV, patakbo kong dala-dala ‘yung mga inigib ko dahil sa excited akong makita ‘yung TV.”
However, when Lozano turned nine, she was molested by a relative.
“Madalas iniiwan kami sa tiyuhin ko. Doon nag-umpisa ‘yung murang edad mo na hindi mo alam kung ano ‘yung ginagawa sa’yo.”
Life turned harder for her when her parents decided to call it quits. She and her siblings were left in the care of their mother who became depressed because of the separation.
As the eldest child, Lozano took on the role as head of the family.
At 16, she found herself auditioning as an entertainer for a club in Japan.
“Naririnig ko sa mga kasamahan ko na kumikita sila ng malaking pera – dollars. Naisip ko ‘yung gusto ko sa aking pamilya. Darating ‘yung time dahil iniwan kami ni papa, tutugunan ko ‘yung mga kailangan ng mga kapatid ko.”
Despite her mother’s strong disapproval, she pursued her career as an entertainer in Japan.
After she was able to provide for her family and lift them from poverty, she still decided to remain working in Japan.
“At 16 years old, parang nakawala ako. Walang nanay, walang sisita; pwede kong gawin lahat ng bagay. At ang nature ng work ko ay very liberated. So kapag may nanligaw sa’yo, madali ka lang sumagot kasi walang magbabawal.”
Lozano's first boyfriend was a Japanese businessman. It was during a short trip to the Philippines when she learned that she was pregnant.
She had an abortion because she was determined to go back and work in Japan.
"Yun ‘yung advise sa’kin: ‘Wala naman ‘yan. One month, two months, dugo pa lang ‘yan. Kung kayang inuman ng gamot, kung kayang hilutin.’ ‘Yun ang ginawa ko, ‘yun ang pinagawa sa’kin.”
However, upon returning to Japan, Lozano became addicted to drugs and continued committing to relationships which often resulted to her getting pregnant.
“Hindi ako pwedeng magkaroon ng anak. Kapag ako nabuntis, titigil ako sa work, wala akong trabaho, walang pagkain, hindi makakapagtapos ang aking mga kapatid.”
Lozano had terminated seven pregnancies in the course of five years as an entertainer in Japan. The last one almost cost her her life.
At 22 years old, Lozano retired from her work. She then opened a dance studio in the Philippines which served as training ground for girls who will be sent to Japan as club entertainers.
Despite settling down and having a family of her own, she paid only little attention to them and instead continued with her vices.
She only learned to value her life and family when her only daughter suddenly became gravely ill.
“One day na nasa school siya, pinatawag kami ng teacher. Nanginginig ang anak ko, masama ang pakiramdam. Pumasok na ‘yung takot at kaba: may anak pala ako. Ano ba ‘tong pinaggagagawa ko? Naramdaman ko na ‘yung galit ng Diyos. Nandoon na ‘yung kaba ko. She was only 5 or 6 years old.”
She believes that her prayers to God spared her daughter's life. After that, Lozano turned her life around and developed a closer relationship with God.
Lozano is now a full-time mother and wife. She spends her weekends as a Sunday school teacher at their church. She is also involved in a foundation that helps poor mothers start their own business for livelihood.
When asked what she will do when she sees the seven children she aborted, "Sasabihin ko: ‘I love you, sorry, patawarin nila si mama.’ Yayakapin ko kung makikita ko man sila. Andun yung panghihinayang pero I believe everything has a purpose.”