Actress Sharon Cuneta. File Photo
MANILA – Actress Sharon Cuneta wrote an emotional letter to her fans on Monday as she admitted going through a midlife crisis.
In a lengthy Facebook post, Cuneta apologized to her fans for letting them down, saying that she is now paying the price for becoming complacent and failing to take care of her career.
“I feel that I have let you down. I let myself go, I allowed myself to get fat and stay fat. I became complacent… I feel that I had lost that ‘hunger’ to be on top of my industry, maybe because I finally had a peaceful home and a loving family and focused on my children so much. And so I suffered the consequences of failing to treasure and take care of all that God had blessed me with regard to my career. It is my fault, my friends. I am only human,” she wrote.
“I was going through a midlife crisis, the effects of which I could never have foreseen. My reaction to it was awful; I became rebellious because I hated myself for the way I looked and the time I continued to waste by not focusing and working on bettering my own person… I hit midlife and I didn’t know how to deal with it. I was lost,” she added.
Cuneta said she started “working like a robot” to cope with her midlife crisis, but still felt that her talents were not being maximized.
The actress, who is known to her fans as the “Megastar,” left ABS-CBN in 2011 to move to the No. 3 network TV5.
“It wasn’t okay when I felt my ‘gifts’ were not being used to the fullest, or correctly, or even at all. So this became a vicious cycle. Ignoring that I had gained so much weight and therefore had limited myself to certain movie roles when there was so much more I wanted to do… And forgetting that as I was doing all this, time was passing me by,” she wrote.
Saying that she has nothing to lose as she goes through one of the lowest times of her life and career, Cuneta plans to start a new chapter in her life by “going back to basics.”
“I have no idea where life is about to take me now. All I know is that I will live the best life I can, with the same mission statement: to inspire and encourage, to show that in this crazy world, there are still a few of us you can count on to be real. To show that you fall every once in a while, but you get up. You must. It is our obligation to do so. I know it is my obligation to do so. Not just for me, but for all of you,” she wrote.
Meanwhile, Cuneta also admitted that she made a mistake when it comes to dealing with her critics and bashers online.
The actress left Twitter early this year after several encounters with netizens who post bad comments about her and her family.
“I am a fighter. I am not a doormat. And like every other human being, I deserve respect, especially because I know I am not a bad person. My mistake was I should’ve picked my battles like I always used to. I was shocked and unprepared, and so I was wrong to react the way I often did,” she wrote.
“I am just so tired of having to defend the kind of person I am, when I know that God knows exactly what kind of heart I have. It is very painful when you are the target of some and made to feel so badly over someone or something they say you are and that you know you are not. But I know I am not without fault. I am the farthest thing from perfect. But God knows I try my best.”
In the end, Cuneta thanked all of those who have shown their love and support for her.
“I don’t say this lightly, but I love you. For loving me even if you don’t know me as a normal human being and not the girl on TV and in movie reruns. I love you for knowing that I am not perfect, and loving me anyway. I love you because you give me a reason to go on doing what I love to do – singing, acting, hosting. I love you because you make me feel needed and still worth something in this fickle word,” she wrote.