MANILA, Philippines – At this point in his career, actor John Lloyd Cruz said he feels that he is fast approaching the stage of becoming "laos," or a has-been in the ever-changing world of show business.
"Ako, feeling ko palaos na nga ako eh. Siguro kasi sa'kin trabaho ko 'to but this is not my life. Trabaho ko 'to, I'm not going to die for this," Cruz said.
Speaking to men's magazine Esquire, Cruz acknowledged the fleeting lifespan of actors in showbiz, with newcomers surfacing relentlessly.
The award-winning actor said that although his days as a matinee idol will soon be over, there might be time still to re-invent himself and shed his good-boy image.
"I have a feeling that it is coming to an end. I'm glad it's happening. Meaning nage-evolve ka na rin 'di ba?" he said.
"Lalo na sa amin, napakaiksi lang ng career span na meron kami. Maya't maya may bago. So napaka-limited ng time para sa'yo, to explore your potential, to explore what you can be, what you can do," Cruz added.
His latest film, "The Mistress" co-starring actress Bea Alonzo, might just be the precise avenue for the re-invention.
Directed by Olivia Lamasan, the film, also starring Ronaldo Valdez, tells the story of a worldly, adventurous man's (Cruz) doomed relationship with a woman (Alonzo) who is already committed to an older partner (Valdez).
Vanessa Valdez, the scriptwriter of "The Mistress," said that Cruz's "sexy" role in the film -- which was earlier pegged for actors Sam Milby and Derek Ramsay -- is definitely something new for 28-year-old actor.
"He was so unsure if he could pull it off. 'This is so not me,' sabi niya. He doesnt think he's sexy. The script was looking for a very self-confident man, well-traveled, with a natural swagger, sexy. That's why we found the idea so exiting, because he hasn't done it," Vanessa told Esquire.
"He has always played the good boy, the guy who is makulit, sweet when he tries to win the girl. But here he's an adventurer, a man who does what he wants and doesn't care," she added.
"The Mistress" is only one among the four major projects Cruz is currently juggling. His reunion film with Pop Star Princess Sarah Geronimo, while on hold, is still very much in the works. Filming for the 20th anniversary film offering of talent management firm Star Magic -- of which he is part -- is ongoing; and taping for his reunion TV series with Alonzo is likewise on his weekly calendar of to-do's.
Cruz, it seems, is still far off from becoming obsolete, or "laos." If anything, the sought-after actor is onto simply "evolving."
"Dati tinatanong nga ako eh, 'Why are you doing this? Why do you do what you do?' Wala. I guess I'm living in the now and I'm doing what I'm supposed to do. I'm not thinking about legacy.
"What I'm saying is I don't believe you do things to earn recognition. You do things dahil kusa mo siyang ginagawa," he said.