Angelica opens up on real mom on Mother's Day

ABS-CBN News

Posted at May 14 2012 01:58 PM | Updated as of May 14 2012 09:58 PM

MANILA, Philippines – Actress Angelica Panganiban does not have any bitterness in her heart even though she was not able to celebrate Mother’s Day with her biological mom on Sunday.

Actress Angelica Panganiban

Panganiban’s mom passed away in Singapore four years ago and the actress never had a chance to even talk to her.

In an interview with “The Buzz” on Sunday, Panganiban said she does not regret not knowing her mom personally because she is in a better place now.

“Iba kasi, like sa mama ko, okay ako. Hindi ako naghanap ng iba. Parang hindi ko kinailangan makita ang tunay kong mama kasi umaapaw ako ng pagmamahal eh, kay mama, kay lola, sa ate ko, sa tita ko. Walang pagkukulang sa akin pagdating sa nanay,” she said.

Panganiban also gives credit to her biological mom for what she has done. She said if not for her, she would not have met her adoptive family who who stood by her.

“Lahat naman ng bagay kailangan mo intindihin. Hindi naman puwede na walang explanation. Ang problema lang, wala na siya rito para ipaliwanag sa akin lahat. Thankful ako kasi kung hindi nangyari iyon, hindi ako mapupunta sa pamilya ko ngayon. Hindi ko mararamdaman ang ganitong klaseng pagmamahal,” she said.

Asked what she wants to tell her mom if she were still alive today, Panganiban said: “Okay ako. Ayaw ko ma-feel bad siya sa mga naging decision niya kasi naniniwala ako na walang tama or mali, lahat may dahilan. Ang ginawa niyang iyon, naniniwala ako na tama ang naging dahilan niya dahil masaya ako. Okay ako, thank you dahil binuhay niya ako at hindi niya pinili ang ibang paraan.”

Meanwhile, Panganiban thanked her adoptive mom who took care of her and taught her the true meaning of love.

“Minahal niya ako ng buo. Never akong nag-doubt kung totoong pamilya ko sila kasi 'yung pagmamahal na binigay nila sa akin, mas grabe pa. 'Yung attention ng lahat kasi napunta sa akin, lahat binuhos sa akin. Nahiya ako na ang kulang yata ng mga nabigay ko,” she said,